Postpartum

My postpartum recovery has been much different than expected.

The first week was very rough.

I was in SO much pain. And so overwhelmed.

 First off...I didn't expect my belly to look so different. I knew I had stretch marks, but seriously...I have A LOT.

I think because most of them were on the bottom of my belly they were hidden from view when I was pregnant.

I am glad Matt didn't marry me based on how my belly looked.

Because it is one hot mess now.

Cute ONE piece swimsuits will be a staple in my wardrobe now.

Secondly. I tore pretty badly.

And it is STILL not healed. 

Honestly...my body could fix that up anytime and I'd be fine with it.

And I still have the nausea...but I did have that pre-pregancy, so that isn't really anything new.

Other than that things have gone unexpectedly well.

Pre-pregnancy I was overweight.

A lot of it was due to hormones

(according to me doctor I wasn't even ovulating when I got pregnant because my hormones were so messed up)

And I also wasn't exercising or eating like I should.

This is me pre-pregnancy.

It was seriously hard to find a full body shot of me around that time.

Probably because I didn't want any...

And then I got pregnant. 

I lost over 20 pounds the first 3 months of being pregnant.

And by the end of my pregnancy I had only gained less than 15 pounds.

This is me at 39 weeks, I believe.

  And then I had my sweet boy and the weight started coming off in droves.

Reagan isn't even 4 months old yet.

And as of tonight I have lost 45 pounds since giving birth.

Which puts me at 30 pounds less than my weight before I got pregnant.

I'll be honest.

I am loving it.

My hormones are changing though. 

I got my period back before Reagan was even 3 months old :(

I was pretty disappointed about that.

I was hoping exclusively breastfeeding would postpone it a lot longer than that.

My hair is also falling out.

In chunks.

Oh well :( at least I got to enjoy about a year of lush full locks.

My weight loss is also slowing down.

Thankfully though I am still slowly losing weight.

Thank you breastfeeding!

I am just hoping my hormones don't revert back to where they were.

Because that was terrible.

Like really awful.

I am thorougly enjoying losing weight and feeling good about myself.

I still would like to lose about 20 pounds, but I also plan to continue breastfeeding for several more months...which should help.

Matt snapped a few pictures of me tonight.

I think I am looking much better :)

My body has changed.

My stomach is still a little...saggy.

Even when I was really overweight I never carried weight in my stomach.

And my boobs are huge.

But even so I feel much better about myself.

I am going to start now actually trying to lose weight and see if it helps some too.

Eating a lot healthier and exercising.

I try to eat pretty healthy as it is...since whatever I eat, Reagan gets. But I can do better.

I also take a lot of walks with Reagan and haul him around all day, but other than that I haven't been doing any exercising. So I am going to start doing some postpartum exercises too to help my body out.

So that is where I am currently at.

And I am enjoying it :)