Back to our "temporary" norm

Reagan woke up this morning and seemed a little disoriented, sad.

He kept going from room to room saying "dada"

I don't blame him, Matt has been home for 3 weeks.

It probably was confusing for him to wake up and not be able to find him. 

Especially since he is straight up obsessed with his daddy.

I am feeling a little out of sorts as well...a little sad.

I love that Matt gets so much time off during Christmas.

This year was exceptionally great though.

We were talking and realized that every other year we have been traveling somewhere. 

Last year we were in Wisconsin and Chicago.

The year before that we were in Atlanta.

The year before that we were in St. Louis.

This was really our first year to be home...and it was so good for us.

So good.

We get caught up with life so often.

Especially this last year with Reagan being born.

Adjusting to life with a baby has been just that..a huge adjustment.

With Matt working full-time and going to school full-time...it has been really hard.

And it has been so hard to focus on each other and just have fun.

Normally when Matt gets home from work, he does homework.

You might think I am exagerrating, but at least 5 days of the week when he comes home...he eats and then does homework until at least 10, usually 11.

The other nights he usually has class.

On the rare occasion we do have time together...we usually figure out our budget for the month, or clean a bathroom together or something fun like that.

Does it sound like I am complaining? 

Because I probably am.

This season of life is something I really struggle finding joy in.

Anyway, back to the past few weeks.

I am crying thinking about

maybe partly because Matt is gone and I am emotional and Reagan is wandering around like a lost little puppy saying "dada"

But I had SO. MUCH. FUN.

It was so fun to have Matt home...mentally, not just physically.

It was so fun to see him interact with Reagan.

It was so fun to just spend time together.

We deep-cleaned the whole house.

That totally doesn't sound exciting, but it was. 

It took us a few days...we just did it slowly.

We took breaks to play with Reagan...or watch a movie.
I don't remember the last time we took the time to watch a movie together.

We didn't have an agenda, but we got so much accomplished.

We finished 4 or 5 projects that had piled up over the year that we have been wanting to get to.

The main one is that we completely redid our downstairs bathroom.

The people who lived here before us didn't have a strong enough fan in there...so water would build up...and mold was starting to grow. Gross. So we tore it all apart. 

Repainted. 

New trim.
New fan.

And completely re-decorated.

This was it before.

 And this is after.
Much brighter.
And Cleaner.

We took a little family selfie too

Reagan is semi-learning to wave. He sort of just sticks his hand out.

We went out to eat.

We slept in.

Let me rewind a few weeks...we started sleep-training Reagan the week before Matt's break started. 

We were at our wit's end with him getting up every night at 1am and then 6am.

It took a little over a week, but it has been smooth-sailing ever since.

He has been sleeping through the night.

He will usually wake up around 7:30, and nurse and go back to sleep.

Which...on a normal schedule...I would just get up and around for the day then...but since we didn't have any agenda to follow...I nursed him and we all went back to bed until 9.

Can I get a hallelujah!

We ALL enjoyed some rest this vacation!

His naps have been spot on too.

2 hours.

Since we don't really have a babysitter down here, we kind of reserved his naptimes for date-times.
We couldn't go anywhere, but we had fun.

I honestly can't think of the last time I had that much fun.

We watched movies, ate pizza, played video games...

And by video games I mean SuperMarioBro's for the Wii...that is about as much of a gamer as I am.

It felt like we were dating again. Only better.

I know why I am feeling sad this morning. 

Matt went back to work today.

Next week he starts up classes again.

We are going back to the norm. 

I know what that has in store.

I know the endless hours with me and Reagan. 

Just me and Reagan.

I know the look on Matt's face when he is tired.
So tired.
I think the worst part is just missing him.
He is gone so much...and so busy when he is home that missing him is what it comes down to.

These past few weeks completely rekindled why I fell in love with him in the first place.
He is my best friend.
 I can't wait until our new "norm" only involves him working...and coming home everyday at 5pm.
How wonderful that will be!

This break was so good. 

And so much fun.

TWO MORE SEMESTERS!